Hot or Cold?

For a very long time i was lukewarm because i was scared.

 It made sense to me that if i was neither here or there, the devil would leave me alone and ignore me completly... I thought all he wanted was to drag strong believing chrisitians down. Whenever i heard anyone telling another what they encounter in their dreams or in a semi-spiritual induced state, i would rebuke and find solace that i wasnt a violent christian so the devil had no concern with me, but boy was i wrong. 

The devil dealt with me in more ways than i could ever share.... Times are changing, and so are the antics and tatics of the kingdom of darkness.. I can so imagine right now that at this age of mind buggling technological advancement that there is an IT department in hell, with crazy geniuses tracking their agents with GPS devices, making VOIP, chatting,pinging, etc. Ever wonder why we dont hear of 'mammy water' anymore? Because their methods are now cutting edge. No need for all those mirror to mirror calls they make, there might be some sort of software like skype or video calling thingy...crazy..lol...ok but seriously. The devil doesnt need to pursue you in your dreams, press you and all that stuff...there's the media, so many things on tv, songs that are degratifying, novels, films, fashion...ahh the list is long and endless. Whether you agree or not, the media influences you and I...in more ways than we can prove. With the things i see, learn, do and those i get curious of...its been a continous and never ending struggle trying to dissuade my flesh and mind from the pleasures these killers have to offer...yet, i thought i was free from the clutches of darkness. It felt like my mind was a shallow, dark, ugly, dirty and a deep box completly empty and devoid of any substance other than convulsive thoughts of lewd, vulgar, profane, sex, inordinate desires, wickedness, evil conspiracies and all manner of distorted views. This was all i could think of...i struggled continuously, cried hoplessly, prayed nonstop hoping there would be a change. Yet you say i was free from the grasp of the devil? I laugh out loud with a straight face! Its a fight! One the lighthearted cant fight! Its either your hot or cold..,lukewarm and HE will spill you out of his mouth.