Woke up this morning, and all I could think about after I said a quick prayer was getting up to go do a few stretches and a round of jogging, as if that would have burnt out the calories I accumulated yesterday from two bottles of Sprite, chicken Suya and a few pancakes I had all an hour before I slept.
Ok, so I got geared up, no trainers though i.e. Still at the leisure level, where you still jog with your bathroom slippers...*covers face while laughing*
I start walking to get warmed up. I see a friend of mine who consistently comes out and a few other regular faces. As I began walking, I see a good looking girl, with gorgeous legs, nice complexion, fleshy and voloptuous in all the needed areas and my mind began to wonder.
I know how many times I have talked down on my self in front of others, calling myself fat and immediately it feels like I have given them a licence to call me likewise (I weigh 65kg...or at least the last time I checked).
I'm yet to understand why I'm still so weight sensitive. Why everytime a person tells me, 'ahh; you are getting fat', why I cringe inside?
Truth, is the media has greatly influenced our minds and the ideals we hold. From our taste in fashion, hairstyles, decor and how we define being successful,beautiful or sexy,e.t.c.
It screams to us that we are either thin or slim or your FAT and ugly.
This is not an attempt to console anyone, but a call to challenge you! There's nothing better than feeling really confident with how you look.
If you feel fat, make effort and watch your weight, but don't make it a do or die affair! If there's something I have observed it's that, most ladies are disturbed about their weight not because of their personal feelings but because they attribute their being physically attractive as a major determinant that would make their boyfriends or husbands find them alluring.
If a guy doesn't appreciate you as big as you are, he wouldn't when you are slim.
There are guys that have preferences for plus size ladies. I just need you to know that you have been tricked to believe that you are just a body of liquid fat, but I came to tell you, that you are NOT!
Who says being skinny is sexy? Who says its hot? I know so many thin people looking for a bit of a weight, if its so nice why are they not enjoying it?
Work on yourself, wear good clothes and extricate yourself from vain friends! (Its easy offering advice, I pray I take this one too).
Observe the kind of people you talk to. If they always complain about being fat and how ugly they feel, run away and surround yourself with positive people.
Start a strict diet, cutting out on calories...yet take it easy on yourself!
True beauty really does lie on the inside!
Your just as beautiful as you let your body believe.
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
1naira got me HARD!!!
M.I's 1naira was the inspiration behind this note.
'You loved me, when no body liked me'
'Whether na 1naira, whether na 1million..baby you gat me'!
Suprisingly, despite new tracks I just can't shake the feeling that engulfs me whenever I hear this song.
Today was one of those days, when my feelings got HARD and was ready to spill forth.
Money and Relationships, two mutually inclusive constants.!
Can one truly love without any sort of financial security in all honesty?
Take a minute or two and draw answers from your own experiences.
I hear a lot of guys say that ladies are all for the money and nothing else.
I'm not certain whose side I'm taking, so I'll leave it to you to tell what you think.
Truth is a lot of sisters have lost it out there, we are rather too focused and stiffnecked on the things which shouldn't be a priority.
Would it be his physical appearance OVER his integrity?
Or his swag/charisma/class OVER his Vision and goals?
The Cash you have to cajole him for OVER his Manners and ettiquete?
Arrogance OVER his Maturity?
Disregard OVER his Respect for you?
Or would you rather a man who doesn't mind showing you off because you look so pretty but yet doesn't care about the unspoken words your heart screams out?
He may not be all that you want...I aint disputing that I'd like to have a crazily rich guy who gets me PAID but what's all that, if I have to work my a$$ out for it?
Why would I want to take all his nonsense and be treated less than what I deserve?
This choice is ours to make, ladies!!!
Like MI sang, ''...cause you see past my revenue, you love me for me, clever you!''.
Find a man, you can grow together with...someone you can believe in, and 'leave you, that's something he will never do'... Be realistic and you would be above the statistics.'!
He's going to get there, and when he gets there, 'guess whose gonna be his baby momma...YOU!!!'
Ladies, check if your Man is a viable seed and invest in him watch your stock skyrocket...stay by despite all.
Money is important! True...but don't throw caution to the wind for it.
Find that person worth loving with or without money...besides it doesn't last forever.
'Whether or not you get money...I'll stay with you if you stay with me'.
'You loved me, when no body liked me'
'Whether na 1naira, whether na 1million..baby you gat me'!
Suprisingly, despite new tracks I just can't shake the feeling that engulfs me whenever I hear this song.
Today was one of those days, when my feelings got HARD and was ready to spill forth.
Money and Relationships, two mutually inclusive constants.!
Can one truly love without any sort of financial security in all honesty?
Take a minute or two and draw answers from your own experiences.
I hear a lot of guys say that ladies are all for the money and nothing else.
I'm not certain whose side I'm taking, so I'll leave it to you to tell what you think.
Truth is a lot of sisters have lost it out there, we are rather too focused and stiffnecked on the things which shouldn't be a priority.
Would it be his physical appearance OVER his integrity?
Or his swag/charisma/class OVER his Vision and goals?
The Cash you have to cajole him for OVER his Manners and ettiquete?
Arrogance OVER his Maturity?
Disregard OVER his Respect for you?
Or would you rather a man who doesn't mind showing you off because you look so pretty but yet doesn't care about the unspoken words your heart screams out?
He may not be all that you want...I aint disputing that I'd like to have a crazily rich guy who gets me PAID but what's all that, if I have to work my a$$ out for it?
Why would I want to take all his nonsense and be treated less than what I deserve?
This choice is ours to make, ladies!!!
Like MI sang, ''...cause you see past my revenue, you love me for me, clever you!''.
Find a man, you can grow together with...someone you can believe in, and 'leave you, that's something he will never do'... Be realistic and you would be above the statistics.'!
He's going to get there, and when he gets there, 'guess whose gonna be his baby momma...YOU!!!'
Ladies, check if your Man is a viable seed and invest in him watch your stock skyrocket...stay by despite all.
Money is important! True...but don't throw caution to the wind for it.
Find that person worth loving with or without money...besides it doesn't last forever.
'Whether or not you get money...I'll stay with you if you stay with me'.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Don't Forget Who You Want to Be!
I can't believe this!
I am outraged at myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Something just hit me...and it did really HARD!
I almost forgot who I was.
What I had desired to become, the greatness that everyone testified to me about that they could see unused, unrefined in me and waiting passively for me to burst forth and explode.
Just dawned on me that in two weeks. I haven't seen or touched my Bible or any Bible at all and even worse than that actually I haven't read my bible or any one at that in almost 2months.
Now I'm wondering what happened to the Bible plan, Pstr. Latunde (my gorgeously annointed pstr on campus) encouraged me to start..?
I remember how I swore that 2012 would be a different year for me, one of manifestation, where I truly would embark on a 'Fulfill Purpose Mission'...how I said when I get a new blackberry, I'd scrutinize the contacts I let into my phone, people of value and worth that would enable my grooming and just a week later, my 'bb' yet reeks of contacts that put up nude avatars , send immoral 'BC's' and use vulgar 'pm's' on and yet I'm comfortable.
I'm not trying to play the 'holy art thou' card, but the things I have done and also thought in the past few days and months are unbecoming of a person who has a vision in mind and a passion to impact the world.
This is my fight, I bet you too are facing challenges, but don't give up. We all fall and do crazy things, this aint even about not comitting sin, this is about your God given and driven heart desires...but when you fall, get up back and try again.
There are people out there like us...who aspire to be great, if we lose track of what God has made us and promised us...it will never be the same. Let's look for thos e who will enrich our lives and cause us to shine positively....you must first grow personally and otherwise before you can plant your seeds in others too.
I almost forgot who God made me...don't forget who He made you.
“Your time is limited, don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma, which is living the result of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinion drown your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” – Steve Jobs
P.s:
Negative “energy vampires” are not living a life full of happiness and success, yet they will happily drag you down to their level unless you escape their clutches before it is too late!
Thank you.
I am outraged at myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Something just hit me...and it did really HARD!
I almost forgot who I was.
What I had desired to become, the greatness that everyone testified to me about that they could see unused, unrefined in me and waiting passively for me to burst forth and explode.
Just dawned on me that in two weeks. I haven't seen or touched my Bible or any Bible at all and even worse than that actually I haven't read my bible or any one at that in almost 2months.
Now I'm wondering what happened to the Bible plan, Pstr. Latunde (my gorgeously annointed pstr on campus) encouraged me to start..?
I remember how I swore that 2012 would be a different year for me, one of manifestation, where I truly would embark on a 'Fulfill Purpose Mission'...how I said when I get a new blackberry, I'd scrutinize the contacts I let into my phone, people of value and worth that would enable my grooming and just a week later, my 'bb' yet reeks of contacts that put up nude avatars , send immoral 'BC's' and use vulgar 'pm's' on and yet I'm comfortable.
I'm not trying to play the 'holy art thou' card, but the things I have done and also thought in the past few days and months are unbecoming of a person who has a vision in mind and a passion to impact the world.
This is my fight, I bet you too are facing challenges, but don't give up. We all fall and do crazy things, this aint even about not comitting sin, this is about your God given and driven heart desires...but when you fall, get up back and try again.
There are people out there like us...who aspire to be great, if we lose track of what God has made us and promised us...it will never be the same. Let's look for thos e who will enrich our lives and cause us to shine positively....you must first grow personally and otherwise before you can plant your seeds in others too.
I almost forgot who God made me...don't forget who He made you.
“Your time is limited, don’t waste it living someone else’s life. Don’t be trapped by dogma, which is living the result of other people’s thinking. Don’t let the noise of other’s opinion drown your own inner voice. And most important, have the courage to follow your heart and intuition, they somehow already know what you truly want to become. Everything else is secondary.” – Steve Jobs
P.s:
Negative “energy vampires” are not living a life full of happiness and success, yet they will happily drag you down to their level unless you escape their clutches before it is too late!
Thank you.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Hot or Cold?
For a very long time i was lukewarm because i was scared.
It made sense to me that if i was neither here or there, the devil would leave me alone and ignore me completly... I thought all he wanted was to drag strong believing chrisitians down. Whenever i heard anyone telling another what they encounter in their dreams or in a semi-spiritual induced state, i would rebuke and find solace that i wasnt a violent christian so the devil had no concern with me, but boy was i wrong.
The devil dealt with me in more ways than i could ever share.... Times are changing, and so are the antics and tatics of the kingdom of darkness.. I can so imagine right now that at this age of mind buggling technological advancement that there is an IT department in hell, with crazy geniuses tracking their agents with GPS devices, making VOIP, chatting,pinging, etc. Ever wonder why we dont hear of 'mammy water' anymore? Because their methods are now cutting edge. No need for all those mirror to mirror calls they make, there might be some sort of software like skype or video calling thingy...crazy..lol...ok but seriously. The devil doesnt need to pursue you in your dreams, press you and all that stuff...there's the media, so many things on tv, songs that are degratifying, novels, films, fashion...ahh the list is long and endless. Whether you agree or not, the media influences you and I...in more ways than we can prove. With the things i see, learn, do and those i get curious of...its been a continous and never ending struggle trying to dissuade my flesh and mind from the pleasures these killers have to offer...yet, i thought i was free from the clutches of darkness. It felt like my mind was a shallow, dark, ugly, dirty and a deep box completly empty and devoid of any substance other than convulsive thoughts of lewd, vulgar, profane, sex, inordinate desires, wickedness, evil conspiracies and all manner of distorted views. This was all i could think of...i struggled continuously, cried hoplessly, prayed nonstop hoping there would be a change. Yet you say i was free from the grasp of the devil? I laugh out loud with a straight face! Its a fight! One the lighthearted cant fight! Its either your hot or cold..,lukewarm and HE will spill you out of his mouth.
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